Terri made me aware that I need to post something. So I will.
It's hard to believe that the holidays are over already. I hope everyone had a nice one and received my belated cards. I was lucky to get them out at all! I had a nice visit with family at Christmas and now trying to get back into the swing of things. I'm trying to get all my carpet cleaned in my apartment and get some real furniture so that it's more homey and my new kitties will have a nice place to live. Everything is tore apart right now and it's kind of stressing me out. Everything is taking a lot longer than I thought it would. I've been looking for couches mostly on craig's list and NO ONE IS RESPONDING! It's frustrating. If you post something...at least have the decency to respond that it's sold or something, just RESPOND! There are some deals on brand new couches too, so maybe I'll go that route. In the meantime, I'm just working away at my three little piddly jobs, UT Box Office, Macy's and InVader Sportswear. Nothing is enough to survive on, but all combined together, I'm scraping by for now. Maybe 2011 will bring me some sort of fortune. I don't mean it has to be financial fortune, just maybe that one area of my life will fall into place. Heck, I'd be happy if I just get my apartment looking the way I want it in the near future!
Later.
Friday, January 07, 2011
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
Tally
I miss my kitty so much. I had to make a VERY difficult decision to give Tally away. I feel bad about it, but with the circumstances, I didn't feel like I had another choice. She was having lots of accidents and not using her litter box. After months of thought, I couldn't let her continue to make a mess of my apartment and not having another place to live, I let her go. The first few days were extremely hard and now that it's been almost a month, I still find myself wanting to talk to her and snuggle. It's so weird not having anyone around normally and it's especially hard now that I'm having a hard time and feeling alone as it is. I'm still trying to clean up all her messes and it's going to take a long time. I decided I'm not going to put my tree up this year and just concentrate on cleaning the carpets. I did put out my nativity and a few other decorations as well as switched to my Christmas dishes. I feel extremely guilty and miss Tally so much. She was like my kid for so long and I just turned my back on her when I felt I didn't have anything else to do. Guess I won't make a good mom ever if I just give my kids away. Good thing I don't have any human kids! I'm already looking into getting a new cat, but not until everything is cleaned up and my apartment is in better condition. I watched a few cats over Thanksgiving, so it was nice being around some felines. I called about volunteering at a cat shelter, but I haven't heard anything back about times to volunteer. I thought maybe giving back to other cats would make me feel less guilty about Tally. This is really difficult for me to talk about, but I thought maybe I should just share. Maybe getting it out there will help me deal with it a little more. Just trying to get through each day at this point! I miss her so much!
Monday, November 15, 2010
Struggling
It’s the usual, I’m bad about writing on my blog. I just don’t have much positive to say to the world, so I choose to say nothing instead.
I’ve been trying to keep myself busy. I’ve been so bored lately. It’s amazing how bored you can get when you don’t work 12 plus hours a day, 6 or 7 days a week. I don’t know which is worse. So, I’m barely making any money and my boss can barely pay me, so I’ve resorted to getting two part time jobs. I thought that since I was finished with grad school, these times were gone. I was wrong. Just finished training at Macy’s and have training to be a part time ticket seller at UT on Friday. I picked up two cat sitting jobs of strangers for this week and next week and am still bored at my regular job b/c it’s so slow right now. Hopefully, I’ll meet some new people at these jobs and at least have contact with more people on a regular basis, even if they are strangers.
I think I’ve found a church…I’ve been three times so far and attended one small group, plans to try another this week. It’s really small, but I went to a ladies coffee thing and had a really good time, so I figured I should give it a shot. We’ll see if I make any real connections and if it’s the right fit for me.
It’s finally cooler here in Texas, but it’s still usually in the 70s during the day, sometimes 80. I guess I’m going to stay in my same apartment for another year b/c I can’t afford to move. I’m still in the stage where I’m doubting my decision about moving here, but not going to give up. I’m determined to make it work somehow…I need to take my own advice to try and find my own happiness. Easier said than done.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
It's hard here.
It's been really hard here to meet people and find real friends. I am still looking for a church and even though I'm getting closer to finding the right one, I just want to be there already. I've been struggling the past couple of weeks and haven't wanted to write anything. Plus, it's like what's the point? No one reads it anyway, so it's just for myself. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision in moving here, but I also have to remember that it takes me longer than average to adjust to new things and places and make friends. I need to try to be more patient and give it more time. I definitely haven't found the right people here to connect with, so at times I get really discouraged.
For my new job, I work in a sweat shop, quite literally. There is no air conditioning and it's absolutely miserable. You're right if you think no place in Texas should go with out AC in the summer. I sweat all day long and it zaps all of my energy. I work 9-5, but I don't want to do anything b/c by the time I leave there, I'm totally drained. I must wear a bandanna around my head b/c otherwise I'll sweat all over the fabric or paper I'm cutting. I cannot wait for cooler weather. It will probably have to be pretty cold outside for it to be cool enough inside the shop to be comfortable working conditions. At first it was just an inconvenience and now it's getting pretty old. I cut material from cardboard patterns for high school basketball and football uniforms and practice gear, for about 60% of my time. About 15% of my time, I design the uniforms and practice gear on Illustrator and print it out on a large format printer. For the remaining 25% of my time, I work on getting products up on the website, removing inaccurate information off the site and trying to make it look better and easier to navigate in general. It's been more of an adjustment than I expected, working a 9-5 schedule. I know that I'm not really using my time wisely, but I'm so used to working all the time that I'm still figuring out how to use the extra time. It's difficult to want to do anything besides try to cool down and relax, doing absolutely nothing.
For my new job, I work in a sweat shop, quite literally. There is no air conditioning and it's absolutely miserable. You're right if you think no place in Texas should go with out AC in the summer. I sweat all day long and it zaps all of my energy. I work 9-5, but I don't want to do anything b/c by the time I leave there, I'm totally drained. I must wear a bandanna around my head b/c otherwise I'll sweat all over the fabric or paper I'm cutting. I cannot wait for cooler weather. It will probably have to be pretty cold outside for it to be cool enough inside the shop to be comfortable working conditions. At first it was just an inconvenience and now it's getting pretty old. I cut material from cardboard patterns for high school basketball and football uniforms and practice gear, for about 60% of my time. About 15% of my time, I design the uniforms and practice gear on Illustrator and print it out on a large format printer. For the remaining 25% of my time, I work on getting products up on the website, removing inaccurate information off the site and trying to make it look better and easier to navigate in general. It's been more of an adjustment than I expected, working a 9-5 schedule. I know that I'm not really using my time wisely, but I'm so used to working all the time that I'm still figuring out how to use the extra time. It's difficult to want to do anything besides try to cool down and relax, doing absolutely nothing.
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
I know.
I know I really need to write something. It seems there is a lot I could share, so I get overwhelmed and write nothing!
1. That eShakti dress is going back. I did not like it. At all. The material is stiff and not comfortable and the skirt is just all wrong...too much material there. It actually fit my upper body pretty well, maybe just a little too big. Either I picked the wrong dress, don't know how to measure myself or just shouldn't buy dresses that I can't try on. I guess it just means I need more practice shopping and trying on dresses!
2. I've decided, now that we are consistently at over 100 degrees here in Austin I'm going to mainly wear tank tops and skirts, capris and shorts. It's just so HOT. This meant I had to raid the clearance racks at Old Navy to get some fun brightly colored tanks that I feel comfortable enough wearing (not too tight). Luckily for someone who is jobless, they had a sale where everything on clearance was an additional 50% off!
3. Had a great road trip to Ohio for about a week and a half and put in just over 3300 miles! It was so great to visit with some really great friends. Some I talk to on a regular basis and some I haven't talked to or seen in a really really long time. My friend's wedding was absolutely amazing and we had a good family gathering too. You can check out the photos on my Facebook page.
4. Having been jobless for about a month now, I finally have some part time work coming my way! Tomorrow, I'll be starting at a small sportswear company just minutes from my house and learning all about cutting fabrics, matching patterns and filling orders. I'm also going to slowly start learning the creative side and use Adobe Illustrator to create mock ups for coaches and then printing the actual graphics on a large format printer so it can be sublimated onto the fabric. Then all the pieces are matched together and sent to a sewer somewhere in California. The whole process seems pretty complicated to me so far, but hopefully I can learn quickly and be a big help to the volume of production. If I am, maybe it will turn into something more than part time!
5. I'm still working out, though I have to be more choosy about the workouts I'm doing. About three weeks ago I got a huge gash on the side of my heel and it hurts to wear shoes. Then, I went walking with my dad when I was home...we walking about four miles at Wildwood Metro Park and I came home with some nasty bloody blisters on the backs of both ankles. Yikes. So, needless to say, I'm letting my feet heal and trying to just do some pilates, yoga and swimming until I can wear shoes again. I got some new Asics (major discount at Kohl's), so hopefully I can wear them soon!
That's all for now folks!
1. That eShakti dress is going back. I did not like it. At all. The material is stiff and not comfortable and the skirt is just all wrong...too much material there. It actually fit my upper body pretty well, maybe just a little too big. Either I picked the wrong dress, don't know how to measure myself or just shouldn't buy dresses that I can't try on. I guess it just means I need more practice shopping and trying on dresses!
2. I've decided, now that we are consistently at over 100 degrees here in Austin I'm going to mainly wear tank tops and skirts, capris and shorts. It's just so HOT. This meant I had to raid the clearance racks at Old Navy to get some fun brightly colored tanks that I feel comfortable enough wearing (not too tight). Luckily for someone who is jobless, they had a sale where everything on clearance was an additional 50% off!
3. Had a great road trip to Ohio for about a week and a half and put in just over 3300 miles! It was so great to visit with some really great friends. Some I talk to on a regular basis and some I haven't talked to or seen in a really really long time. My friend's wedding was absolutely amazing and we had a good family gathering too. You can check out the photos on my Facebook page.
4. Having been jobless for about a month now, I finally have some part time work coming my way! Tomorrow, I'll be starting at a small sportswear company just minutes from my house and learning all about cutting fabrics, matching patterns and filling orders. I'm also going to slowly start learning the creative side and use Adobe Illustrator to create mock ups for coaches and then printing the actual graphics on a large format printer so it can be sublimated onto the fabric. Then all the pieces are matched together and sent to a sewer somewhere in California. The whole process seems pretty complicated to me so far, but hopefully I can learn quickly and be a big help to the volume of production. If I am, maybe it will turn into something more than part time!
5. I'm still working out, though I have to be more choosy about the workouts I'm doing. About three weeks ago I got a huge gash on the side of my heel and it hurts to wear shoes. Then, I went walking with my dad when I was home...we walking about four miles at Wildwood Metro Park and I came home with some nasty bloody blisters on the backs of both ankles. Yikes. So, needless to say, I'm letting my feet heal and trying to just do some pilates, yoga and swimming until I can wear shoes again. I got some new Asics (major discount at Kohl's), so hopefully I can wear them soon!
That's all for now folks!
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