Sunday, September 19, 2010

It's hard here.

It's been really hard here to meet people and find real friends.  I am still looking for a church and even though I'm getting closer to finding the right one, I just want to be there already.  I've been struggling the past couple of weeks and haven't wanted to write anything.  Plus, it's like what's the point?  No one reads it anyway, so it's just for myself.  Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision in moving here, but I also have to remember that it takes me longer than average to adjust to new things and places and make friends.  I need to try to be more patient and give it more time.  I definitely haven't found the right people here to connect with, so at times I get really discouraged.

For my new job, I work in a sweat shop, quite literally.  There is no air conditioning and it's absolutely miserable.  You're right if you think no place in Texas should go with out AC in the summer.  I sweat all day long and it zaps all of my energy.  I work 9-5, but I don't want to do anything b/c by the time I leave there, I'm totally drained.  I must wear a bandanna around my head b/c otherwise I'll sweat all over the fabric or paper I'm cutting.  I cannot wait for cooler weather.  It will probably have to be pretty cold outside for it to be cool enough inside the shop to be comfortable working conditions.  At first it was just an inconvenience and now it's getting pretty old.  I cut material from cardboard patterns for high school basketball and football uniforms and practice gear, for about 60% of my time.  About 15% of my time, I design the uniforms and practice gear on Illustrator and print it out on a large format printer.  For the remaining 25% of my time, I work on getting products up on the website, removing inaccurate information off the site and trying to make it look better and easier to navigate in general.  It's been more of an adjustment than I expected, working a 9-5 schedule.  I know that I'm not really using my time wisely, but I'm so used to working all the time that I'm still figuring out how to use the extra time.  It's difficult to want to do anything besides try to cool down and relax, doing absolutely nothing.