Sunday, September 18, 2011

Paul McCartney

I still can't believe that we saw Sir Paul McCartney in concert!!!  It was really amazing.  I'm ashamed to say that I have not been a die hard Beatles fan.  But I think I could be!  Actually, I went through a phase where I acted like they really weren't all that great.  My parents only listened to oldies music my entire life, so I got sick of it and was bitter I was missing out on all the current music of the 80s and 90s.  Now, I have come back around and I have learned to appreciate all those classic songs and groups I grew up listening too.  Too bad I'm still trying to catch up on what I missed in the later decades.  So back to Paul.  I just love the Beatles and their music and it's amazing how many hits they put out during the time they were together. 

A lot had been going on leading up to the concert, so it was kind of surreal even when we were on our way up to Detroit.  My dad found a station that was playing only his music and talking about the concert, getting us pumped up.  Here's how dumb I am, I didn't even realize that Paul McCartney had another group called Wings...I just knew it sounded like him, so I figured it was the Beatles.  We had seats in three different areas, so my sister and I sat by ourselves and Mom and Dad sat together.  I didn't mind sitting by myself b/c there was plenty to enjoy!  He came out and sang Hello Goodbye first.  Soooo good!  OK, so I'm going to say that most of the songs were so good, so here's the ones I remember him playing:
Hello Goodbye
Lady Madonna
Eleanor Rigby
Heltor Sketor
Hey Jude
Band on the Run
Live or Let Die
Get Back
Paperback Writer
Day Tripper
Let it Be

Obviously, there were a lot more, it was a long concert and I'm sure Rachel can remember them all :).  The highlights were Band on the Run - love the tempo changes; Hey Jude - went on for a long time, whole crowd was singing the na na na's and swaying hands in the air (totally gave me goose bumps); Live or Let Die - fire bursts off the stage and fireworks behind during the big parts of it (SO EXCITING)!  It was just so neat to see him and hear him talk about different things.  He's a left handed guitarist and changed guitars about 1,000 times.  He used a ukulele that George Harrison gave him!  Oh it was just so good!  I loved it!!!  Rachel, I can't thank you enough for making this happen for our family!  It was something I won't forget and definitely in my top two concerts ever (other is Elton John).

*I'm still trying to upload pics from my phone.  Just so you know, they'll be poor quality if I can get them up here.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Rear End

I started a post a long time ago and never finished.  I'll work on that later.  I feel like I've had a lot of ideas for blog posts come up, but haven't acted on any of those ideas.  Fail! 

On July 31st, I was with some friends and we were enjoying a nice Sunday afternoon and evening.  Drank flavored mimosas (not as great as it sounds) and went to a small park with water slides.  Unfortunately, it closed too soon after we got there.  On our way back, we got rear ended.  I had a few drinks in me and wasn't driving, so it didn't really seem that bad to me.  The back end of the car looked pretty bad though and we were hit by a big pickup truck and lost the entire bumper.  I didn't feel any pain or stiffness or anything, but my friends pressured me into going to the chiropractor...he is also a friend (of a friend, really...acquaintence).  I resisted for as long as I could and finally gave into the nagging.  Most people probably know that I have anxiety, but maybe not.  I do and I hate going to doctors and get panic attacks.  I don't like people that I don't know touching me and would never pay money to get a massage. I just don't feel comfortable.  It's weird, but that's how I am. 

*People that I am comfortable with and are close to, I don't mind if they touch me. One of my love languages is physical touch, I enjoy hugs and that kind of stuff.  What I don't want is some stranger putting their hands all over me. 

But, alas, I gave in and went to the chiropractor.  Just thinking about it brought on the symptoms of anxiety, but somehow when I went it was under control.  I wish I knew how that happened!  My neck was pretty straight and apparently it's supposed to curve a little, so I had a little therapy to do.  Last Tuesday, I was rear ended on my way to work in bumper to bumper traffic and I hit the guy in front of me.  The jerk drove off and the hit felt pretty hard.  It even caused a cd to come flying forward that I thought I'd lost two years ago.  My car doesn't look bad, but man was my neck a mess.  I could barely move it for a few days and just the last two days has it felt considerably better, but not great.  It was such a stressful situation b/c I totally can't afford an accident right now and I don't have uninsured motorist for property damage.  Luckily, I can still drive my car even though it does need to be repaired at some point.  I realize that no one can really ever afford to get in an accident, but right now I have a lot of stress on how I'm going to get through each month b/c my jobs are crap.  Anyway, it turned out the guy in front of me that I hit can't claim anything on my insurance b/c it wasn't my fault (Thank God).  This is getting way too long...

So, naturally, I'm still going to the chiropractor.  Hopefully it's helping with this newer accident, but I will definitely be glad when it's over (cross your fingers for only 2-3 weeks).  I don't know much about the science behinid it, just that I hope to be pain-free and have 100% mobility soon!  Not sure that I would go to a chiropractor again.  No more accidents for a long time, please!!!

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Back in Texas Y'all

I made it back after logging 3,000 miles.  There's a lot that I could share about my trip, so I might have more than one post on it.  Some events justify their own post!  I did end up having fun and it was good visiting people.  It was hard b/c I didn't have much time to visit as many people and places as I would have liked.  Of course I came to Ohio during their hottest week so far and it even hit 100 degrees.  My hope was that I could get a bit of relief from the 100 degree temperatures we've been experiencing in Austin since June 1st.  But no!  It wasn't too bad most of the time, but in Toledo, it was extremely humid and my parents don't have AC.  Luckily they have a pool, so I was in it quite a bit.  They have a window unit in their bedroom so one night I even slept on the floor in there.  Thank goodness for AC at most places!  Temperatures in Texas won't be going down anytime soon and we're still in extreme drought.

It was great to finally meet Rufus and hang out with my family.  Domino (Rachel's cat) seemed to like me; or at least like the fact that he had another person to hang out with.  He's a really sweet kitty.  Also, I got to meet her new chickens.  Unfortunately, I must be allergic to long haired cats maybe or something...b/c I was miserable part of the time.  Other highlights were seeing Rachel's band concert, my cousin's wedding, the Cincinnati Zoo, and....................WE GOT TO SEE PAUL MCCARTNEY IN DETROIT!!!  I still kind of don't believe that we saw him.  It was really really good.  It was a lot of driving, but it's so nice to have my car so that I can tour the state and see more people.  I'll put some pictures on here and more on Facebook probably.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

e.l.f. 100 shadow palette

I'm quickly headed toward being obsessed with makeup.  I bought this eye shadow palette today.  It was definitely a splurge for me even at just $10 because I don't have extra money right now.  It's from the e.l.f. professional cosmetic line.  You can get it at Target or on their website, and I even found a very small selection at the HEB grocery store here in Texas.  I've been watching TONS of makeup tutorials lately and people are always doing these beautiful looks with dramatic eyes and pretty colors (I haven't yet mastered how to apply the makeup).  I don't have a large selection of eyeshadows, I tend to wear the same stuff, usually purple, grey, gold or Stila's kitten.  This palette will give me the option to try out all kinds of stuff as you can see it has every color you'd ever need (or close to it).  Today I was already wearing green on my eyes, so I tried one of these shadows out real quick and put a bright green in my crease and it was definitely really pigmented so I think I'll be happy with the quality of this product.  Each square of color is pretty small, but I imagine it's still going to last a long time if you mix up your look often enough rather than using the same colors over and over.  I'm excited to try other new products in the near future, but like I said, I just have to be careful about what I spend.  I also picked up a pair of their false lashes for $0.99, so I'm excited to try those out as well.  Haven't ever worn lashes and they might be fun for the wedding!

Wednesday, July 13, 2011


Blah is how I feel about my upcoming trip to Ohio.  Usually before a trip I'm anxious to plan out my itinerary down to every detail.  This time, I can barely get myself to make any plans.  I guess I just feel like because I haven't made any positive progress in my life in the last year, I should be embarrassed to visit people.  Last year at this time, I had just been laid off and needed to find a job...and I was completely humiliated by that.  This year, I have a job that doesn't really pay me and has made me stressed, miserable and despressed.  In my mind, I've taken several steps back rather than forward.  I've needed to get away from home for a long time and now that I am, I feel indifferent about it.  Don't get me wrong, it will be great to get away from Austin.  But this isn't like a typical vacation.  I will have to watch my budget really closely and don't really have the freedom to do whatever I want while I'm away.

It's been a struggle to even attempt to make any arrangements.  I'm in the mindset where I just want to alienate myself from everyone that I don't feel comfortable around (which ends up being most people).  I can't help but compare myself to others and feel like a failure.  So many thoughts are going through my head that I don't know how to express.  My idea was that maybe writing down my thoughts would help me process it and put myself out there.  I understand that life is difficult for everyone and people are going through harder times than me and that I should have perspective.  But depression is hard and I have a harder time than what's normal in dealing with it, especially when I don't have the tools I'd like to have.  At least I'll have a lot of time alone in the car to think about things.  Well, that could be a good thing or a bad thing!  Be glad you aren't inside my head.

Things I am looking forward to though are seeing my family and meeting Rachel's newest family member, Rufus.  And on another positive note, I've been looking forward to my cousin's wedding since Christmas.  I always enjoy weddings...for the most part I can escape that dark place in my mind in reference to weddings.  I love everything about weddings!  I probably won't want to return to Austin and real life after being around my family since I really miss Ohio and having a support system.

Sorry for being such a downer all the time, but I have to be honest.  Things aren't good and I don't feel like I should have to be fake.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

The Middle and The End

I meant to write something after The Two Towers, but the week went by and I didn't get to it.  And now the whole thing is over.  :-(  There were a lot of parts of The Two Towers that I didn't remember.  I think with it being my least favorite, I haven't watched it as many times, so therefore I'm bound to forget some stuff.  It was really good.  I thoroughly enjoyed the introductions by Peter Jackson.  It felt like we were really getting a personal insight into a few of his thoughts on making these films.  I wasn't sure what to expect, but we got a different intro for each movie, talking about specifics of each. 

Three favorite parts of The Two Towers:
1. The introduction of Gandalf the White
2. Shadowfax - I remember loving him in the book too...can't help it, I'm an animal lover
3. Faramir going against what his father wanted when he let Frodo and Sam continue on their journey...doing what he believed was the right thing.

In regards to The Return of the King, my feelings are bittersweet.  Great things happen to end this story, but it's so sad that everything is over and the great characters who became close friends are no longer together.  Also, it's really long.  Four hours is a long time for any movie, not to mention, the third part of one.  Peter Jackson said it's 12 hours if you watch everything back to back.  Whoa!  Unfortunately, this time we were in a much smaller theater and it was practically full by the time I got there, so I couldn't sit in my 'usual' spot, I had to sit in the second row.  There are so many things to mention, I'd need to pick three favorite parts for each character. 

Three parts I loved in The Return of the King:
1. Pippen saving Faramir.  First of all, he has to put up with that jackass Denethor (Faramir's & Boromir's father) being useless, gluttonous and degrading.  Then no one listens to him so he moves with haste to find Gandalf.  And Faramir lives!
2. Sam's courage to make it to the end.  He does so many brave and smart things to eventually help destroy the ring and defeat Sauron.  He takes the ring off Frodo before capture, he dresses up as an orc to fit in, he knew not to trust Gollum and carries Frodo right up to the fires of Mordor (don't want to think too much about the spider-eek).  Go Sam!
3. The general bond those of the Fellowship have with each other.  Such a small group goes up to the gates of Mordor and they fight courageously for Frodo knowing they could never beat thousands of orcs. Aragorn, newly crowned king of Gondor, bows to the hobbits for their bravery.  The reuniting of everyone in Rivendell and then the tearful goodbye are both so touching.

Obviously, there is so much more, but I will end there.  What a wonderful story by J.R.R. Tolkien and a spectacular production by Peter Jackson and the thousands who made it possible for us all to enjoy. 

End? No, the journey doesn't end here. Death is just another path, one that we all must take. The grey rain-curtain of this world rolls back, and all turns to silver glass, and then you see it.
White shores, and beyond, a far green country under a swift sunrise.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011


It is already known that I'm a nerd, so I'm gonna go ahead and talk about seeing the Fellowship of the Ring (for the first time on the big screen).

The back story---I thought LOTR was so stupid the first time I saw it.  My sister was watching it on DVD one holiday when I was home from college.  I didn't even understand what they were talking about.  I even tried to watch it and just didn't get it.  I tried watching it a couple other times and finally made it all the way through.  I admitted that I liked it.  Almost a year later, Two Towers came out around Christmas time and I went to see it with Rachel in the theater (most likely opening weekend).  I even was looking forward to it.  After that movie, I made it my goal to read the book before Return of the King was released the following year...definitely becoming a huge fan.  As always, the book is better than the movie, but I'm telling you, the movies are awesome, if you haven't seen them.  It took me a loooong time to get through the Fellowship of the Ring, book version.  There is an extremely long section in there that isn't mentioned in the movie and it was just really long.  I'm a slow reader, but I kept at it and finally got through.  The Two Towers and Return of the King went a little faster and by then, I couldn't wait to see the final installment of the movie version.  And oh it was so good.  So good.  It was such an exciting event and I had been looking forward to it, and then it was over.  So sad.  I mean, we are on this journey with this great group of characters for so long, so it's difficult when that journey comes to an end.  Anyway...that's how I got sucked into the LOTR and I'm so glad!

So, when Rachel told me that they were re-releasing the extended versions three Tuesdays in June, I was on the fence.  That's a lot of money to spend for someone who pretty much never goes to movies and is on a tight budget.  Then, I watched the trailer.  It was simply the music that got me.  I own the soundtrack to the trilogy and absolutely love it.  Ah!  I was still contemplating on whether or not I was going to go until the night before.  Then I finally just often is this opportunity going to come along?  Every ten years if we are lucky and I get my wish!  It's just the equivalent to a tank of gas, I bought my tickets and went with the splurge!  Let the excitement begin.  I got to the theater early, with the rest of the nerds and on my way in, saw a MY FRDO license plate.  Lol.  It wasn't sold out, but it was pretty full.

Then I realized, I'D NEVER SEEN FELLOWSHIP IN THE THEATER.  Omg!  The scenery is just spectacular and I was instantly so glad I'd decided to see it.  Why did it take me so long?!  Ah.  Loved every bit of it and the three-and-a-half hour movie went surprisingly quick, even though my butt was hurting a little.  I laughed, I cried, I got the chills and our audience clapped three times.  I just love when an audience claps in the movie theater.  It's just a great feeling to enjoy one of the most fantastic, truly amazingly well done, epic productions of our lifetime with a group of people who appreciates the movie and the original story as much as I do.  Oh. So. Good.  Looking forward to the next two Tuesdays, but will be sad once again when it's over.  These movies were meant to be seen in the theater, so definitely go if you can.  You don't know when you'll have another chance!

I caught so much more this time around watching, so I'm thinking that will be the same for the next two movies.  I remember Two Towers being my least favorite, so maybe I'll even like it more after seeing it again.  Three things I loved the most in the Fellowship (hard to only pick three):
1. Life in The Shire and how happy things seem for the hobbits
2. Sam's loyalty to his promise to Gandalf and unfaltering desire to not leave Frodo's side
3. Legolas's general bad assness and such keen senses

All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.

Monday, June 13, 2011

TV Shows

I don't watch a great number of shows on a regular basis, but those that I do watch, I definitely don't miss them. I watch them online if my stations aren't coming in very well (stupid digital TV) or if I have something to do.  Lately, it seems most of what we have to choose from is Reality TV.  I know some of the shows I watch are really stupid and dramatic, but I can't help but enjoy them.  A lot of the shows I watch, I really like to pay attention to the clothes and makeup of the stars and just the fashion overall.  We have to get new inspirations since SATC no longer has new episodes.  I realize this may make me lame, but when life gets you down, you gotta have something to look forward to!

These are the shows I watch, in no particular order:
1. Desperate Housewives
2. Modern Family
3. The Office
4. The Biggest Loser
5. The Bachelor/Bachelorette/Bachelor Pad
6. The Voice
7. Brothers and Sisters (just ended this past season)

Shows I would probably almost always watch if I had cable:
1. What Not to Wear
2. Most shows wedding related
3. Home decorating shows

Wednesday, May 04, 2011

Miss You

This has been quite an emotional week already.  Monday morning I learned that a dear friend from Miami passed away.  It's been hard to think of much else since then. I met Corrine my sophomore year of college and quickly became pretty close.  She was always someone I could talk to as a student, after I left Miami and when I came back as staff.  This news was so shocking, it was always her husband who was going in for another heart procedure.  Corrine always had a smile on her face and said things straight up, she was nice to my friends and family and she felt like family to me.  She's been the secretary in the Miami Men's Basketball office for the past 26 years and will be missed by so very many people.  I wish that I could be there for the services, but everything was so soon and I couldn't make it happen.  She wouldn't have wanted people to make a big fuss over her anyway.  But this week and always she'll be in my thoughts.  Love you, girl!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Happy Easter

It's about that time, for another post.  Happy Easter everybody.  Still truckin' here in Austin.  Wish I could have been with my family today.  I went to a great service this morning at Riverbend Church.  The music there is just amazing and the sermon was good too, about 1 Corintians 1.  My kitties are sitting here with me now, surprising that they are both on the same couch during the day, just napping.  Normally one is in the closet or under the bed or something.  Guess they are really starting to come around.  Bette Davis (the little one) really likes me now and always comes to me when I am home and she's become really friendly.  Daisy (the orange one) doesn't like me as much, except when the food dish is empty.  She's still nice though and lets me pet her.  I bet that eventually we will seem like a family.

This week though, there were two incidents of bad cats in the middle of the night.  Tuesday, I woke up to find a broken glass jar all over the steps that previously held sand and shells from a beach I went to...what a mess!  Wednesday, I woke up to find my flip flops with many many teeth marks in them.  Tally used to chew flip flops all the time, so I knew to put them up high where she couldn't get them every time I took them off.  These cats never seemed to go near them, so I didn't think it would be a problem.  Well, I left them out and of course the next morning they were all chewed up.  :-(  I thought my days of ruined flip flops were gone!  At least now I have an excuse to shop for new ones!

In sad news, I just read that Dr. Shriver passed away last night.  He was former President of Miami University and a wonderful guy!  I'd met him several times, I worked with his daughter for a long time at Miami and his son was our announcer, so I worked with him at all of our home events.  I feel sad for their family!  They were all really close.  He will be missed along with all his Miami history stories that he told.

Monday, March 07, 2011


I just did a pilates video for the first time in a LONG time.  Hopefully I can do it more than once!  And, my friend just gave me the newest Lifehouse CD for my birthday.  I don't know how I put off getting it for so was out in the fall.  I'm going to be rocking out to that until I learn the whole thing!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

New Post

There's not much for me to say, but figured I'll write something for my standard once a month post.  Ha.  I did get a couch, finally decided on one.  It's way too big for my apartment, but it's nice to have a plethora of places to sit.  I wish it was a little more cushy, but it's the best in that style that I could afford.  I've been hitting the job search a lot harder lately, but still haven't heard much.  I just really want to work in an office and a full time job would be really nice.  It's hard not to be discouraged, but I've been watching some movies and playing spades online to keep from dwelling on things.  It's been pretty stressful though since my main job is so far behind on paying me.  I've already had to resort to tapping into my savings account.  I just have to believe that there is something out there and keep applying.

I got two new kitties and they are pretty much worthless.  Having them makes me miss Tally even more b/c she was a good cat, aside from her obvious problems.  She laid on my lap, slept with me, talked to me, needed me and just loved me in general.  These cats have been with me a month and still aren't warmed up.  For a long time they were just called, the Fat One and the Little One, or the Orange One and the  Dark One.  The previous owner gave them dumb names (my opinion of course) so I waited awhile to name them.  The Little One still doesn't have a name b/c she's been a bitch and rarely comes out of the closet.  Miracle today though!  She let me pet her and pick her up!!!  This is definitely a first.  Most of the time when I see her or talk to her she just stares and acts like I'm going to kill her.  If only she knew I just wanted to pet her!  Today was huge though....maybe she'll come around eventually.  She might even be partially blind.  Her pupils are almost always fully dilated, so maybe she only sees some movement.  That would explain why she's so scared in a new environment, I guess.  The Big One, now named Daisy has been more friendly and asks for pets even though she spends most of her time under the bed or in the closet.  She talks a lot too, or I should say quacks b/c she sounds like a duck.  That's how I named her, Daisy for Daisy Duck.  At first it was going to be Daffy Duck until my mom pointed out that Daffy is a boy and the whole point of renaming these cats is for them to actually have gender appropriate names this time around.  Some people may think it's wrong to rename eight year old cats, but do they really know their names anyway?  If they did, they should be glad to get new ones!  I just really wish that they were more cuddly and cared when I got home from work or watched TV with me or something.  That's what cats are for!  Hopefully I didn't get a couple of bad seeds.  Ugh.  They are pretty cute, but they just don't feel like mine yet...I suppose we'll get there eventually.

Friday, January 07, 2011

New Year

Terri made me aware that I need to post something.  So I will.

It's hard to believe that the holidays are over already.  I hope everyone had a nice one and received my belated cards.  I was lucky to get them out at all!  I had a nice visit with family at Christmas and now trying to get back into the swing of things.  I'm trying to get all my carpet cleaned in my apartment and get some real furniture so that it's more homey and my new kitties will have a nice place to live.  Everything is tore apart right now and it's kind of stressing me out.  Everything is taking a lot longer than I thought it would.  I've been looking for couches mostly on craig's list and NO ONE IS RESPONDING!  It's frustrating.  If you post least have the decency to respond that it's sold or something, just RESPOND!  There are some deals on brand new couches too, so maybe I'll go that route.  In the meantime, I'm just working away at my three little piddly jobs, UT Box Office, Macy's and InVader Sportswear.  Nothing is enough to survive on, but all combined together, I'm scraping by for now.  Maybe 2011 will bring me some sort of fortune.  I don't mean it has to be financial fortune, just maybe that one area of my life will fall into place.  Heck, I'd be happy if I just get my apartment looking the way I want it in the near future!